Amazing, all this time I thought you were a nice guy.

I think that other people should start thinking about how others will feel because of their actions. I'm sick of someone being happy, but leaving me miserable. And yes that is self-centred. But maybe they're the self centred ones for only thinking about their happiness.

I can't explain how sick I feel. No I don't have an illness. I feel sick because I'm back where I always end up. And why? Simply because my emotions clearly aren't as important as everyone else’s. Simply because I'm always just too late. Simply because no one ever seems wants me. And the worst part is that on the odd occasion that someone wants me, I don't want him.

For once in my life, I want the guy i like to want me back.

Since as long as I can remember, the guy that I like goes out with someone else. I wish I could elaborate on the type that gets picked over me, but then my tongue (well, typing) would get me into far too much trouble. But the games getting old. I want to feel good enough, I want to feel like I mean something, and as though I'm not just there to pass the time until something better (well clearly only better in their eyes) comes along.

There’s a slight chance that maybe one day, I’ll be everything to some guy. Just maybe one day, when I fall head over heals for a guy, he'll feel the same back, and won't just spoon-feed me bullshit for a year or so. Just maybe one fucking day, I’ll be the one who gets chosen, and won't have to sit in my room crying asking myself what on earth I could have done to deserve this.

I know that nothing in life is fair, but if someone can tell me how being nice only leaves you alone and miserable, that would be great.

I know there's plenty of fish in the sea, but I wanted that one. Pity they stopped feeling the same way.