It just makes me laugh

Early hours of the morning, I start acting differently
"What's wrong?"
"... Nothing"
"No, what's wrong, tell me"
"... I can't"
"Yes you can, tell me"
This leads to a 3 hour talk, both of us crying
"You know I loved you more than I could ever love her, you know I'll always be vulnerable to you"
"I'm sorry, and I wish there was a way for me to say that where it has more meaning, but you've heard it all before and I can't say it or try and prove it anymore"
"... I know, I'm sorry too"

That night made me think he had a heart, however the past few weeks have proved I was right in what I thought for so long.
I wish for once, he'd tell the truth, because I can't decipher what's a lie and what isn't anymore.

How on earth can you stand up when you clearly have no back bone ?
I want nothing to do with you ever again.

I get the best feeling and my stomach gets knotted up whenever you talk to me
because I know that just for a little while, i was on your mind.
And that little while is enough to make me smile like a kid in a candy store.

Sick little games

Last night, I had this dream.
I was in the middle of the woods, trees everywhere,
the ground had sticks and twigs, the bark on the trees reasonably dark, and the trees had the darkest of leaves.
It was in between sunset and nightfall, that time where its getting dark, but still light enough to see properly, and there's no glare from the sun.
And I was chasing this boy who's name I won't mention.
We were running around, almost playing hide and seek I guess you could say.
He kept running and hiding behind trees so I couldn't see him
and every time I would get close to catching him, he'd run away again.
And it just kept repeating over and over.
The entire time, he was laughing and seeing it as some sort of joke.
At first, I did too, seeing it as some silly game and almost like I enjoyed chasing him,
but towards the end, I was exhausted and was amazingly frustrated in how he kept running whenever I was close
He however, kept going, and kept making me chase him, and look for him, and fight to catch him.